Pizza Recipe

We've been horrible at blogging. I know. No excuse really. Just too lazy to keep up with Facebook, Journal, Blogging...oh yeah, and LIFE!!!

Deb is sick and tired of our usual meals. It's time to switch it up a bit and try some new dishes. She made Beef Wellington on Sunday and it was DELICIOUS!!!! We felt like real fancy folk for the night. We saw them make it on Hell's Kitchen and thought she'd try it.

So, we want to make homemade pizza next. So, if you have a pizzz crust recipe you'd like to share we'd love to try it!!

Decisions...Big Decisions

So, this week it seems like there is so much on my mind I might pop!! We are trying to decide if/when/where we should move. We want to adopt a baby and so we are considering maybe becoming Foster parents and then eventually adopting the right child when he or she is brought into our lives. BUT...we need a bigger house. We miss our old ward so much, but we are starting to get to know people a little better in our new ward. But, would be open to moving into a new ward if the right house and situation came about. We also want to keep Maddy in the same school district so there are just so many things to consider. Sometimes I think being a grown-up is very hard. Friends, if you could do what you ALWAYS do best and keep us in your prayers. We want to make the very best decisions so that we can be on the right road to eventually having the little boy or girl that belongs in our family!

Great Start!!!

Yesterday was my first check in with the doctor. I LOST 5 POUNDS!!!!! I lost fat and not lean muscle mass which is very important. I am so excited! It isn't a lot I know but it just means I am on my way!!!

Every pound I lose is what motivates me to lose another!!! Have a great weekend!

1000 calories a day!!

So I met with the Dr. last week. He put me on a 1,000 calorie a day diet and I am exercising 6 days a week right now just working my way up to 30-45 minutes a day. I even roller skated last week and Madyson's birthday party - thought I might die afterwards - I am definately older than I used to be but it was such fun exercise, I think we should do that more often. I did cheat a little over the weekend but today - back to the grind. IT's still too early to see any results of course although I am feeling very motivated and also feeling like I am a little more energy from day to day.

Meeting with the Dr. really hurt my pride. My weight falls in the "morbidly obese" category - not ever something a person wants to hear. But, for me, it just motivated me to change. Thank you so much for all of the support and encouragement in this. Deana I would love to walk with you anytime! Until it gets hot that is - then - I am not doing the outside thing!!! I am a wus!

Week 2 - The Journey

So, I think I might do weekly diet entries instead of daily - "there's just nothing to say" that often. (Our new favorite quote from the movie - "Couple's Retreat" - hallarious!) Anyway, back to less entertaining topics - (haha)

This last week was a start - slow start - but it was a start. I gutted out the pantry and even threw away the chocolate peanut butter ice cream. It kind of freaked me out when I thought to myself as I was throwing that way - I need this ice cream - kind of a small panic feeling - THAT IS NOT HEALTHY!! News flash!
So this week, the next step! I am going to be walking everyday this week, even if it's just for a half hour. I see a new Dr. on Wednesday night to begin the medical weight loss program and also will be getting a little counseling to help me begin new habits and make sure that I am not eating for the wrong reasons. Those of you who have known me for a long time might know that this has been somewhat of a struggle for me off and on my whole life so I want to learn through this process this time. I want to make sure that my relationship with food is a healthy one. I have been thinking back over my childhood and realized that when big things happened in my life - I really did deal with it one way or another with food. I have always been active and at times quite healthy but I think in our society - so much of what we do incorporates food. I need to remember that I am eating to live!!

The exercise issue is a big one for me lately and thinking about it makes me kind of emotional. I actually LOVE to be active. I enjoy exercising once I am doing it. I have been living in pain for so long however that it is hard to move through that pain and get moving if you know what I mean. It is something that is so important for us to do and I need to make myself do this. I am looking forward to starting to swim with my friend Bethany - she is so patient and also honest so she will not let me wimp out. That will be good for me.

Thanks for taking the time to read - I hope this journey is helping more than just me. I know that the love and support you all are giving me helps me everytime I feel like it's not possible. Baby steps and consistancy - that is what I need right now. Looking forward to Wednesday!!!

A New Journey...Day 1

So, I went to the Dr this morning for my follow up from my stomach surgery. Things are still healing but he said it's going well - finally. The incision collapsed from all of the fluid that was trapped in there and wants to open me back up in months to fix it. Not something I am happy about AT ALL - but it is really ugly right now so might be a good decision. The Dr. then asked me - do you want to get gastric surgery - you need it - I strongly recommend it. Not something you want someone to ask you at all and really hurt my pride. But then, as I look into the mirror - I honestly am heavier than I have ever been in my entire life and not healthy at all. I want to feel good about myself again so...I am going to embark on a new journey and I am going to record it on our blog so that I can look back as I go and learn from this experience. I am hoping that as I do this, I can learn about why I am in the shape I am so that I can prevent myself from getting back to this place again.

I also want to record this on our blog because I am hoping that as I go down this journey that any of our friends who want to join me, can have some place to go for support. I have the most amazing friends in my life and I always know that if/when I am having a down day or things get hard, that I can look to my friends for support and encouragement and I have a feeling that there will be more than a few of those days. Maybe I can offer support to someone else and hopefully I can draw on the support from my wonderful friends (and husband who is also very supportive).

So today is day 1!! I am going to gut out the house of the goodies and comfort food that has accumulated over the last few months while I have been dealing with health issues. I can't use that as a crutch to be unhealthy anymore. I have made the call for an appointment with my Doctor who also has a medical weight loss clinic and will check back in regularly to record my progress. Anyone want to join me? Let's make this year a year of becomming healthy physically, mentally and always spiritually. Encouragement only!!! Here I go!!

Walking The Boys...

So, today I took a step back towards the real world. I took the dogs for a walk!!! It was a beautiful day and it felt so good to get out in the sun (cool sun I must add) and breath in fresh air. It about kicked my butt and I am pretty exhausted tonight BUT I felt like it was a step in the right direction and I am going to go every day from now on!!

Mike has started walking again too. I am so proud of him. He is a really good example to me of someone who once he decides to do something, he comits and just does it!!! Maddy is getting ready for her 12th birthday in a few weeks. She wants to have a roller skating party - ahhh my kind of party!! Gonna be a BLAST!!